This is the problem! The capacity of the senses to enjoy is limited but the desire in the mind is unlimited. This discrepancy between wanting to enjoy and the ability to enjoy causes all sorts of ailments.
Bulimia is one such ailment. Bulimia is only related to food but similar diseases can be related to all other senses as well. And this is what in one word you may call obsession.
You are obsessed with something, though your ability to enjoy that is limited. That is where transcending the five sense has a lot of meaning. When you transcend the five sense, you find the inner peace and inner joy. Then this craving of five senses subsides naturally and effortlessly.
The joy that comes from being still cannot be compared with anything. Then anything else becomes a botheration. It’s feels like things require too much effort and appears to be very small than the joy that you gain from being still. You need to get used to that also.
So, when you recognize this problem, then you have put your foot down and say, ‘No, this is enough.’
All this only leads to one thing, that we want to be more happy, more joyful, and we think that we can find it in those things (here meaning from sensory pleasures) but it really isn’t so. We need to go into the source of joy, source of happiness and that can come only from within.
If intention is right then don’t worry about it. Though action does have its repercussions, but it is not much when the intention is right.
It depends on what level you are thinking from. On one level you are creating, and on another level you are finding; both apply here.
If it is about your true nature, then you are finding because you don’t have to create your true nature, it is already there. You don’t know who you are and what you are; so you need to find who you are, you need to find your true nature.
When you are creating yourself, it brings up talents and you learn more skills. On the periphery you have to create yourself, in the center you have to find yourself.
It is always good to say ask the divine, but you can also say, ‘If there is anything better that you have planned for me, then let that happen.’
There is nothing wrong in asking, ask and it shall be given to you. This has also been said in the Bible.
In Sanskrit it is said, you pray for what you want, but this prayer is a deep sense of need. And, you pray for what you think is usually not in your ability to achieve.
You don’t pray for a glass of water, unless you are in a desert where there is no water. What you pray for is what you think you cannot achieve with your limited resources, skills, or your effort. That is when prayer happens. Then you say, ‘I need this, but I don’t think I can do this. Please grant me this’. While asking, you also can add, ‘If you think there is something better in store for me, then let that happen!’
It’s fantastic! That’s how it is. At one level, the self knows everything and at another level, there is this realization, ‘I don’t know anything, I know very little’. This keeps your consciousness light and innocent. And that light and innocent consciousness or mind is the basis of intuitive ability, the basis of the mystic, ultimate blossoming of the divinity.
The moment you think, ‘I know’, you become very hard. When you feel, ‘I don’t know!’ then you feel more alert because then there is a sense of wanting to know. When you want to know, you are so alert. When you think you know, your mind is away from the knowledge at that moment. When you think you know it, you are getting into some sort of hardness or inertia.
Again this is on one level only. We have multi-layers of consciousness, you are multi-dimensional. That is why on one level, everyone knows that, ‘I am never going to die.’ You all live as though, you will live here forever. Nobody feels, ‘I am going to die one day,’ because one aspect in you is never going to die.
Truth is multi-dimensional and that is why you find it to be completely opposite. This is the beauty of the ancient wisdom; it accommodates completely opposite point of views, and both are true.
It’s true that it is your effort at one level, and it’s true that whatever you achieve with your effort, is much smaller than you.
It can be very confusing, right? This is because our mind is trained to think linear. We don’t think spherically. This is for you to change your way of thinking and understanding from being linear and moving on to something wholistic and much more spherical in nature.
Faith remains in you. Faith is in the center core, and doubt is only on the circumference. They sometimes come like clouds and obscure you, but they really cannot destroy the faith.
