Dear Gurudev, how do I find peace for the misery I have caused. My husband passed away in April 2015. He lived alone for 15 months and made his last telephone call to me and I screamed at him. I did not listen to what he had to say. He was having affairs throughout our marriage and I caught him 15 months ago. I could not forgive him. Today, I am sorry.
That’s okay. You should move on. Life is like a river. Sometimes muddy water fills the river, sometimes clear water fills it; sometimes all the leaves of the fall float in the river and sometimes logs float, but the river never stops. A river has something to teach us, and that is — just move on. That’s it.
It’s okay to scream at somebody. It doesn’t matter if you have done it in the past. Never mind, don’t repeat it in the future. And don’t sit and keep regretting it either, "Oh, I did that". Well, you did it, what to do now? It is finished! Move on and on, don’t stop. If the water stops, it stagnates and rots, if it keeps moving, it becomes clear.